1.complete trust or confidence in someone or something.
Voltaire tells us “Faith consists in believing when it is beyond the power of reason to believe.” Sounds lovely and perhaps the beauty of faith is the reason I’m always intrigued by individuals who have faith they openly discuss. Often times I’ll find myself engaged in a discussion with a person about their beliefs and I find that their faith is a beautiful thing, even if I completely disagree with what they are saying.
I’m not so strong on the faith front. Martin Luther King, Jr shared that “Faith is taking the first step even when you don’t see the whole staircase.” This quote alone causes me a bit of discomfort and panic. Maybe you’ll take the first step, but me, I’m refusing to. I need to know where we are going, how many stairs there are, are the stairs steep or shallow, why are we taking the stairs, is there an elevator we can use instead, is this journey necessary, etc. Clearly, I’m a joy to behold in any unknown situation and my therapist probably needs to charge me double.
If I manage to take that first step or the first couple steps without any of my questions being answered, I’ll hover for a moment as my fear takes over and then I’ll rush back down to my perceived safety. Yet, I’d like to have faith. I am that person that does believe in a larger power and I do occasionally pray for signs, but then if the sign shows, I wonder if I prayed wrong and if the sign doesn’t show, then maybe the universe wasn’t listening or maybe I again prayed wrong.
Now if someone said the above to me, I’d point out there is not a wrong way to pray and to trust the signs or lack thereof. For me trust comes hard. My foundation for trusting others was damaged years ago and I’ve never been sure how to rebuild it. Compounding that difficulty is that I was inadvertently, or maybe purposefully depending on your viewpoint, taught not to trust myself. I’m not sure, but maybe the only way to have stronger faith is to practice trust, not only with others, but with myself. Perhaps that needs to be the first step, really beginning to trust myself. If there is one thing I’ve recently learned it’s that I’m not crazy and my intuition serves me quite well. So maybe, just maybe, I’m ready for some good ole fashioned faith.